indeed yr msg did hurt mii,
wasnt realli myself yst.
not becuz im emo, but i asked myself and asked God
how was he feelin when seeing the situation like that.
and i jus felt so burden, so heavy hearted.
veri sad, disappointed, yet still awaiting for ur return
that was His feeling, on my way to expo,
on 969 looked at the sky lots of time,
askin God was that how He felt at that moment.
and yes, it was.
cried on the bus, but looked strong infront of the rest.
im upsad not realli becuzx euu didnt fufill ur promise
partly becuzx of how God felt,
next is i keep having flash bck of how close we were
during our 'O's
hw we lend support to one another,
how euu stood by mii giving mii the encouragement my members
couldn giving and wouldnt noe that i need,
tellin mii nt to give up,
and i hold on to God and our friendship.
yet now, i couldnt give euu the support and encouragement
euu need, issit that i ddint do enough?
or am i simply did it wrongly?
maybe i shld have realise ur prob long ago.
i shldn have jus thiink my strength is enough to support euum
our friendship def. is affected, not that it is build on church,
but somehw it is the emotions, the thoughts, the destiny, the destination differences
and the purposes we are living for.
wad i sae todae and yst wasnt meant to pressurised euu, if euu thiink i had.
im sorry. wad i sae is becuz i don realli wann lose a friend like euu.
can euu understand how im feeling now?
im not blaming euu, im not forcing euu, i can give euu time
but how long euu need? 1dae,1mth,1yr,1decade or 1 lifetime?
i can wait but ask urself, do euu have the courage to come bck by than?